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For as long as I could remember, I was a radical. My libra scales always tipped in favor of fairness and equality, and I fought tooth and nail to be treated the same way everyone else was. I questioned the unquestionable, raising hell with each inquiry, and although my mama warned me that curiosity killed the cat, she conveniently forgot that satisfaction brought it back. So I fought til I was satisfied. With every boundary I crossed and every limit I pushed, I sought the resuscitation, that energetic life-force of knowing. My teenage years are marked by weeks-long arguments with my mama about everything and nothing at all. My defiance, her rigidity, my non-compliance, and her anger surrounding it. The two of us, ever oscillating in a dance mirroring the irresistible force paradox. I wasn't willing to allow myself to succumb to mindless obedience, no matter who the authoritarian was. 

Now that I'm grown, I'm finding that life is trying to beat that out of me. Literally force me into submission for the sake of my "livelihood" rather than prioritizing creativity for the sake of my mental wellbeing. And I feel silly about it sometimes. I desperately want to be that 9 to 5 corporate girly, with a wardrobe of  Express suit separates and a Coach Empire work tote but I can't lmao. The shit is draining. And I can't pretend like that's where my aspirations are as much as I want to. So here I am, at the final stage of grief. Accepting my radical lifestyle as a writer, as an artist, and a revolutionary. I'm literally Beyonce's contemporary, what a time to be alive lmao. But with acceptance of my lifestyle comes the recognition that everyone won't understand it. 

In spite of that, I look forward to the depth and richness this life will bring. So in honor of my newfound self-radicalization I want to pose a question: How can I radicalize you? 

Cuz if rising costs of living with stagnant wages haven’t, and this capitalist structure that prioritizes productivity over community hasn’t, then what can? Like if the war currently waged on literacy and information isn’t radicalizing you, please tell me what will. Cuz I want that for you. I want you to be so upset that you’re willing to risk the comfort of a few for the betterment of many. I want you to recognize that this world is counting on your illiteracy and ignorance to push a regime that will not benefit you, so baby, please. How can I radicalize you?